-S.c.h.i.z.o.p.h.r.e.n.i.a.-

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

* day of thoughts... *

phew... another 3 hrs of agony of writin lit essays ..finally over!!
didnt reallie get to study after that... was distracted.. by lotsa things... well..
anyways.. kinda had a greaat day in a way.. the walk ard the track at night really reallie calmed me down..
besides.. it's full moon today! the sight was awesome i tell u... the breeze, indescribable... it's been a looong tyme since i did things like that.. sad huh? haha.. jus tokin non stop... sitting down and enjoyin the silence..
so so peaceful...another unforgettable day...
aniwaes, tml's teachers' day! haha... well .. happie teachers' day, teachers! muahhaha... okies.. tt's all fer now!! gtg ciao to bed!! till then! :P

::BLOggED:: @ 8/31/2004 12:13:00 AM

Monday, August 30, 2004

* calmin effect *
// the calming effect... //

finally.. another 3 hrs of agony of writin lit essays over..
didnt really get to study after tt though... anyways.. today was not so bad after all!
had a night walk round the track... it was greeeaat! it has been a looong tyme since i did things like that..
i must say that the peace/quietness ard u jus makes u calm.. think bout things and stufff... plus!! there's the full moon!! the sight was awesome... haha.. it'll be better if there's stars! muahhaaha..
talked about lotsa things and found out lots of ahem.. secrets too.. haha..
greeaatt! shall go fer nite walks often...

::BLOggED:: @ 8/30/2004 07:13:00 AM

Thursday, August 26, 2004

* crush on u *
// still surviving...//

phew... 2 days of prelims gone.. 6 essays in one day?! tiring! haha... cant wait fer prelims to be over...
im in a state of uncertainty lately... fer lotsa things... sometimes it jus drives me crazy... sometimes im back to reality... hovering here and there... dunno wats goin on... some things are jus so hard to tell and predict... oh boy... i miss being a j1.... lalala... no more distractions... its jus non stop studyin rite now.. runnin a marathon here... cant afford to stop halfway... wont be able to handle the consequences... lalala...
i cant wait fer grad nite! haha... i know i know.. said that a thousand times... cant help it!
hopefully V-nought can perform....! lets jus keep on hopin and wishin... muahaha..anyways.. wat kind of a reason is this?--- "ohh.. drums too big and heavy to carry to the hotel laa... " they better not have any band performances that nite then.. if not.... haha... okies.. gtg.. study study study... yes... yet again...when will this end? :]

..................
I used to turn around and walk away
Never stopped to play
Cause there was no attraction
But in my heart you start to grow on me
Kind of suddenly
So now I've changed direction
Knowing it might seems strange
Love came over me
Feeling the luck has changed
Do you want me, like I want you?

::BLOggED:: @ 8/26/2004 11:14:00 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2004

* yana jus bght a hse! *
// my fren jus bght a house!!!?? //

ya... yana my fren in perth jus bght a hse... yep a hse.. u didnt see wrongly.. ya.. a hse so wat rite??!! u guys mus be wonderin... ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!! the point is she 1 yr older than me and she has a car and a hse?? like halo??!! why am i sloggin my life here?? studyin like mad fer exams.. like grades are all that matter in life... why!!!!!!??????????? grr... again and again.. yana shocked me with news like that... news like that made me ponder over things... she's wrking in mac, she has a car, a hse, enjoyin life.. going fer holidays.. and me? and us? life is unfair.. u have no idea how much i envy her... im very happie fer her.. hehe at least she's fren enuff to ask me stay there when i vist perth! thanks girl! ya.. back to the main point.. the point is.. wait.. im complainin rite?! wth.. anyways.. the news of her new hse jus made me wanna do well fer As and tats it... im done.. why im done or wat im done with after the As... but wth.. yana said: " at the end of the day, u jus gotta do wat u like"
i can never do wat i like in singapore.. never... i jus know.. im sure u people know that too.. we are jus stuck in this cycle... sch, gd grades, gd job,gd money, family, then wat? haiz.. ya ya.. im complainin yet again.. jus cant help it... its not that i hate my life now or anythin... its jus that.. i feel soory fer myself that i cant do wat i like... ya some of you will say that.. its up to you to either enjoy the things you have now or not or jus complain.. dun give me that crap k.. deep down.. i jus know that all of us wanna enjoy life.. enjoy in the sense that not laze ard and do nothin and wait fer people to serve u and stuff.. enjoy as in do the things u like.. if u wanna do art/sports then go do art/sports! but in singapore.. parents will say art/sports have no future la,,,yadaa yaddaa.. u see wat i mean? okies okies.. enuff of my complains.. work hard lydia...

::BLOggED:: @ 8/21/2004 12:04:00 PM

* *
-school is drivin me nuts-

its crazy... prelims' starting this tues!!! i jus so can predict wat i'll get this time.. sobs..
oh god, help me!!! why issit that i never realised this will come... that time really will jus zoom pass.. didnt i say i dun wan history to repeat itself? and wat im doin now is jus so gonna make history repeat itself... isnt it?
gosh... i guess rite now.. i jus gotta try my very best... i 've seen miracles happen... miracles happenin to myself... im sure it'll happen again if i try hard enough... rite? (haiz.. it jus seems so hard to do jus that)... never give up... yep 1 thing i know is tt i'll never give up... everything else will be jus up to someone up there...

* cheer me up, made me smile whenever im feelin down
"you can do it..." jus that, gave me the drive to work even harder
no matter how bad the day goes by, jus a smile fr * made everything seems fine again.
watever that is being said that day made me ponder, it surely did made me happy
but why issit tt when hope is there, * put me down, disappoint me,
its been like that everytime...
when * say something, i'll wonder if u told the others the same thing too...
is there really smthg or issit jus ...?

::BLOggED:: @ 8/21/2004 10:22:00 AM

Monday, August 16, 2004

* finally! *
// finally...! //

haha..yep.. finally managed to squeeze a lil' teeny weeny bit of tyme to update my blog.. muahaha.. readers out there mus be damn bored... haha.. well.. nothin's been happenin lately... everyone's jus busy muggin and all... start counting down people!!! 1 week to prelims!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh.... im doomed... im not even half way thru...?! grrr... haiz.. and it so doesnt help that olympics craze is on!! and singapore idol!!! muahaha... the show is so damn funnie! people makin a fool out of themselves and all... haha! singapore idol is the solution to a bad day mann!!! hahaha!

anyways.. everyone's so so excited over grad nite! it's crazy! esp the guys in my class!! it's so funnie to see them blabber non stop bout grad nite!! haha... i see that we have additional bunch of " gals" in class huh?? muahaha... its seems that the guys are the ones who's so enthu and stuff... but im not complainin mann... compared to other classes where almost half the class not goin and all... A21 rocks! hehe... i cant wait fer grad nite too!! it'll be a fun nite.. i hope.. that'll be the day where we'r free!!! no exams, no stress.... it'll be the tyme to have fun and jus go crazee!! i jus know its so gonna be an unforgettable one... :P

btw.. im so on a diet rite now.. so people in sch.. pls do not tempt me with food!!! esp chocolates and stuff!!! haha... gotta lose weight!!! lalala... its sad how people are so straightforward tt... ahhh....!!! so ya... no fatty foods for moi!! okies okies.. gtg go back to being a nerd... till then... tc pple!! :P

::BLOggED:: @ 8/16/2004 09:03:00 PM

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

* after a looong break? *
// one of those crappy updates //

happy national day people!!
okies.. a bit belated..

anyways.. decided to update my blog before i go to dreamland... hehe
gosh.. time goes by jus like tt.. like nobody's business mann... jus when i was like thinkin how im gonna enjoy the long break,get some rest.. study n all.. tadaa! its wed alredi! wat the... grr.. the worst thing is.. i didnt even do anything pdtive or worth mentionin! and thanks mann.. prelims is like in 1 and 1/2 weeks? ahhh.. im so dead..

oh b4 i forgot... today's A21-er wedgy's bdae! happy burfday!! muahaha.. (the cake was cool thou.. half choc half white peach stuff.. -choc fer praba n white fer wedgy! haha... its on purpose!)

did i mention.. that after the loong break it seems that more and more people are kinda discovering tt i have a blog! comin up to me n stuff.. okays.. its kinda scary.. i dunno why.. started out thinkin tt it'll be a place where i can kinda vent my frustrations, reflect and stuff.. didnt really know tt pple are that interested in reading blogs.. haha.. i know i know.. i myself like readin other people's blog..its kinda addictive! haha..
aniwaes.. i guess it jus feels that more and more pple are comin into/gettin to know my inner thoughts and stuff.. uncomfortable n all.. but wth, wats a blog fer then... haha... yeps..

oh and a lil smthg i wanna tell u guys.. hmm.. wat u read here/know stays in here k! :P
it'll be kinda embarrasing u know.. if u come ask me bout the stuff written in here! cos i tend to write things on impulse.. muahhaa.. like i can get really emo at times... my mood fluctuates! hehe.. so yep yep.. thanks! luv ya!
ending note... as usual.. study hard u guys.. not much time left..
till then.. try to keep ur spirits high k... p/s: watch singapore idol if u'r down! haha.. i couldnt stop laughing!! the next "in" thing is the lemon tree dance huh?! wahahaha! :P

::BLOggED:: @ 8/11/2004 11:54:00 PM